So, one of my big goals for the new year is to start watching more movies. Another is to bring back Movie of the Week on my blog. In doing this, I realized that I had never posted ESOTSM as the Movie of the Week because it was always kind of... "implied" that it is always the movie of the week. Let me explain myself...................
Over the years, this film has inspired me in ways I never knew possible. People told me that I looked like Clementine, that I acted like her, that I was sparatic like her, the whole bit. I loved her character desperately and still think she is the most beautiful character ever portrayed. I became her in a sense. I dyed my hair like her, I learned how to play all the theme songs on piano, I dyed a sweatshirt orange, got a tattoo for the film, and here comes the best part: I found a boy like Joel. It was all seeming to fall into place. I would watch Eternal Sunshine almost every day for a month. Then every week at least. I got to know each and every little detail about the film, and I lived inside their world.
This wasn't a real world, though. It was a lingering response to something unreal; something that never could have been... something I wanted desperately. I found myself relating back to my childhood and remembering how simple it was. I wanted it back and I felt betrayed by my adult life at the time. I also wanted to erase other painful relationships of the past much like this film. I thought- how happy would I be without the blemishes of the past? To have a spotless mind is eternal sunshine.... truly.
Do I want to run away from reality? Sure, I do. It seems as if I always have. This is another huge reason why blogging is so appealing to me: it's like creating your own world. Living inside of a dream that was Eternal Sunshine is what I became known for... I became Clementine for a short while.
I must tell you that I got my Eternal Sunshine tattoo when I was single. I wouldn't have it any other way. The poem is written by Alexander Pope in 1717 and it's titled, "Eloisa to Abelard." It inspired the film and is recited during the Elephant Parade Scene.
I hope I've finally explained my obsession with this film in it's entirety and no questions remain... but if you are still wondering something, please leave a comment and I will answer it.
love, polly
